"The Time in Beetween" un libro de Nancy Tucker

When Nancy Tucker was nine years old, her class had to write about what they wanted in life. She thought, and thought, and then, though she didn’t know why, she wrote: ‘I want to be thin.’

Over the next twelve years, her wish came true. She developed anorexia nervosa, was hospitalised, treated, monitored - before finally swinging the other way towards bulimia nervosa. 

She left school, rejoined school; went in and out of therapy; ebbed in and out of life. From the bleak reality of a body breaking down to the electric mental highs of starvation, hers has been a life held in thrall by hunger.

Told with remarkable insight, dark humour and acute intelligence, The Time in Between is a profound, important window into the workings of an unquiet mind – a Wasted for the 21st century.

Conocí a Nancy a través de un vídeo publicado por Leena en su canal de youtube. Tras quedar impresionada con su locuacidad, "necesité" comprar el libro que llevaba su firma. Sabía que no sería tarea fácil.

He tardado cerca de meses en desprenderme de este libro y no llevarlo como una prolongación de mi propio cuerpo. Meses para ilustrar mis pensamientos, para dar forma y expresión a sentimientos que sabía explicar previamente a otras personas.

El estilo de escritura de Nancy es muy directo y limpio, humorístico y duro; pero sobre todo, honesto.
Mientras en otros libros que tratan el tema de los "Trastornos de la conducta alimentaria" se preocupan de venderte lo delgadas y enfermas que estaban las protagonistas, lo mínimo que comían y cómo jamás nadie estará tan enfermo como ellas. Además del típico final de "la recuperación es preciosa, casi igual que caminar sobre nubecitas.

Hay momentos muy poderosos en el libro: cuando Nancy escribe cartas a la "anorexia" cómo antigua compañera y actual enemiga, identidad que necesita ser borrada.

Sin duda uno de los mensajes de este libro, es que la pérdida o ganancia de peso, es una CONSECUENCIA, y no una CAUSA. Un TCA no es solo miedo a engordar... El aspecto físico es solo un aspecto superficial. Detrás de ese muro hay un odio inmenso a uno mismo, un castigo perpetuo, manipulación, miedo al cambio, soledad y perfeccionismo tóxico, pérdida de razón y sobre todo, de esperanza.

El libro de Nancy es una voz para aquellos que sufren TCA, pero también una llave para aquellos cubiertos por el velo de la ignorancia sobre este problema.

*He dado por sentado el género femenino, ya que hasta el momento ni he leído ni conozco ningún libro que traté el TCA desde el punto de vista masculino*

♥ Ci vediamo presto my friends ♥

Marta

Eternal Sunshine of this movie will always be on my mind

“Constantly talking isn’t necessarily communicating.”

At some point of his life Gondry decided that he was bored of classical movie structure, that rules were meant to be broken. In Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind he partners with Kaufman (whose screenwriting was more inspired than ususal since the script was designed in its every detail) to provide us with the ultimate portrait of love covered by a veil of fiction that aims to mislead us.

Let's get things straight, this movie doesn't follow a cronological order but I'll try to summarize and review it as best as I can. CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!

Joel and Clementine are introduced to us as complete strangers who've just met out of casualty. Then a romance is brought to us when we discovered that in the past they were indeed, a couple (one of those whose problems start to outweigh the good times). A story of erased memories, a clinic with an experimental "treatment" and employees with no so easy lives; are the threads used to dig fearlessly in a world of feelings.

This movie is more than one love story, it is a lot of love stories, a lot of movies in just one. It shows that we like to hold onto memories rather than on actual facts. Couple resentments seem to bind more than loving and understanding in some cases (just wait till the end of the movie).

I think that what Gondry wanted ask with this movie was: Even if it's a horrible heartbreak, would you erase all those memories from your mind? All the time you spend with them, would it be worth it or a waste? Also the cliché "you can erase someone from your mind but not from your heart" applies marvelously to this movie (they don't remember each other but still fal in love).

Doesn't it all sounds familiar to you? Two people fall in love, break up, but after a long time they don't seem to remember what brought them to the edge and get back together - OMG THIS MOVIE IT'S A METAPHOR OF REAL LIFE!!!

Secondary roles weren't plain at all, all characters are deep and tell a story about different ways of loving and relationship, so that's another plus for this movie. Also the scenography is simple and spontaneous, it is very important in some moments, but gives the actors the attention they deserve in other scenes. Gondry really knew how to manage every little detail and angle.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is too beautiful. There's so much love-error and repeat, it reminds me of life itself and it's wonderful.

RATE: 4,8/5

♥ See you soon beautiful people ♥

Vlada

Multiply yourself with Ed Sheeran's new album (ok that was poor)

I was up until late yesterday just to listen to the album and it didn't disappoint, it is in fact, beautiful. But... I kind of miss some depth in this album, because all the songs are good but not all of them are deep and overthought like I feel they were in the previous album. But Hey! he is growing and changing and all that stuff so let's see where we develop from here. What I wanted to say is that I'm glad I waited almost three years for this. Let's start with the songs in "x"

Ed Sheeran – One: Appearently this is the last song Eddie wrote about his muse for "+" so it's obviously good. It's a ballad, really quiet and one of the things I like the most about it is that you can actually hear all the instruments pretty clearly (like in every other ed's song). Oh god when it comes to Eddie I can't even...

Ed Sheeran – I'm A Mess: Fun fact about this one --> It was written in a shower and also it was the first one I've learned with guitar from this album. In this song Teddy sings that he is a mess and looks for sweet surrender. He also says "Before tonight I wanna fall in love" which I don't know why makes me feel incredibly sad (not that much don't worry). Let's omit the phrase "put your faith in my stomach". It's is an incredibly simple folk song that mixes great with the background of voices and guitar riffs.

Ed Sheeran – Sing: This one is like R&B meets pop and Ed's guitar? At least that's how I see it. Ed said this one was "out of his comfort zone" but I absolutly love it and I'm glad it was the album's first single because it gave it the attention it deserved (so many its). We all live for Ed's falsetto and you know it, so don't say you don't like this song because you do ;)

Ed Sheeran – Don't: MY JAM!!!!! Kind of explicit isn't it? But it's good. Teddy said it was a bit personal and that he was doubting about putting it in the album. BUT PLEASE! It describes incredibly perfectly (what the f?) how an appearently perfect and happy relationship develops. Just pay attention to this and tell me it is not awesome:

                                                    And I never saw him as a threat
                                 Until you disappeared with him to have sex of course
                                                   It's not like we were both on tour
                                     We were staying on the same fucking hotel floor

Ed Sheeran – Nina: This one is about Nina Nesbitt? (too basic maybe). Teddy sings to someone call Nina, telling her that he's no good and that he can't commit at the moment because he is on tour and everything. This one is catchy so keep an eye on it.

Ed Sheeran – Photograph: This song is THE SONG. Let me cry while I listen to it. Photograph is for me the best song in the album and the one that shows me that "+" Eddie stills here (no  seriously I'm feeling the tears now). The drums fit perfectly in this song and I can also hear the guitar perfectly and a piano sometimes. It's an ode to love just by listenning to the lyrics I get goosebumps. This song is romantic and I love it.

Ed Sheeran – Bloodstream: It has references to chemicals alcoholism and dark stuff. Eddie shows his vulnerable side with sincere lyrics. As many other songs this one shows how scared he is to be left alone and so he asks for forgiveness. If it is about real events it was probably written during a hard time when he felt kind of hopeless. He sings: I've been sitting here for ages, ripping out the pages, how'd I get so faded?

Ed Sheeran – Tenerife Sea: I love the guitar in this song, and how the song is so romantic and full of feelings. Eddie S tells his lover that he is so in love and that he loves everything about her. I like the fact that he seems to pay attention to every single detail he loves about this certain person, and how he points them out in this song. SO BEAUTIFUL OH MY! When the Should this be the last thing I see line comes is too much.

Ed Sheeran – Runaway: LOOPED VOCALS AGAIN!!!!!! I'm personally not very interested in this song but I have to say the instrumental is AWESOME, the mixture is genious. I'm going to see Eddie perform live in November a day before my birthday and I'm curious about this one.

Ed Sheeran – The Man: "You need me, I don't need you" vibe isn't it? Vulnerable song again, really open, that speaks about his fears of fame, love, chemicals maybe? I don't know but this one is a song to be overanalyzed and it's 1.57 AM. I leave it to open interpretation. Just saying it's almost a TOTALLY rap song.

Ed Sheeran – Thinking Out Loud: This is a happy song about a longlasting relationship (a life-lasting one I'd say) and it also makes me cry. Eddie sings that he loves his girl above everything and forever and he pictures a lovely scene of him and his partner loving each other when they are older, he says it is a "walk down the aisle song" I love the lyrics forever too: 

When my hairs all but gone and my memory fades

And the crowds dont remember my name

When my hands don't play the strings the same way 

I know you will still love me the same

Ed Sheeran – Afire Love: I needed to put this one, because you seriously need to listen to it. But it is too personal for me to write about it at the moment. It is in the Deluxe version of the album, also the bridge of this song is too much.

PS: Hope you love this album as much as I do! What do you think about it?

PS2: Tomorrow I'll  probably review Lewis Watson's album because he streamed it for his mailing list (I'm included there). But if you're interested in another kind of post I could try and make a double update.

PS3: SERIOUSLY THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR COMMENTING AND READING AND CLICKING THIS BLOG!!! Also, Sabine B you're awesome, your comments always make me smile.

♥ See you tomorrow beautiful people ♥

Vlada